.Sunday, June 22, 2008 ' 6:10 PM
Aiyahs :]Dear so bendan today :)But when he bendan he soo cute x)I love you luhs !Anyways skip skip skip .Tomorrow school rights :DSeeing dear .Assembly , lucky dear class near my one.o.oDawna mama tomorrow got chemistry arhs o.oI dont know lehs , some people must stay backBut if you want you go lorhs .If you want go i help you go tell Pearlynn bahs .Never mind.I just could'nt understand you.Christ and i are already over ..Why give a care?There's something that i don't really understand. I cooled down and the talk we had yesterday, isn't how i expected it to be. Ok, presuming you really dont like the girl, you never seen her before. But you're like so called online dating for 2 weeks. Put things this way, in the points you claimed.
But i just dont understand this. Just 2 weeks, you didnt see her, you fall deep for her. Hmm, well if you dont like her. Yesterday when she asked you to choose between us, you could just readily tell her you dont like her. Okay, nvm. And lovely reason was, "i promised not to leave her and i don't wish to hurt her because she's getting some chest surgery by end of this year,and you know many guys have hurt her,i dont want to be another one." Wow. I felt like being shot by a gun like repeatedly or like rewinding the scene being shot by the gun. LOLS.Well, let me tell you this, YOU PROMISED NOT TO LEAVE ME TOO. ... lols. Maybe the 9 months we had didn't count, you know?
Hmm well, 3 weeks/9 months.She's mid of some illness/i'm not. She's going to get a surgery/i'm not. She's smokes like you/i don't. She doesnt expect much for you/I do. You promised both of us. You know this story is way too drama to handle.
Hey maybe if i've known better, i shouldnt even meet you with xing or like stead with you a week. MAYBE we could have been closer. And just 2 weeks, you're speaking in her shoes. THINKING FOR HER/THINKING HOW SHE'LL REACT/THINKING IN HER POINT OF VIEWS.And you know something? You never once think in my shoes think in my point of view for like the past 10 months. All what you think is pleasing me not thinking why i want this or that.Argh, I'm not like feeling jealous or something. Just super disappointed and thinking how fickle-minded you can be.
Ok, seriously, i dont like any inch or bit about your girlfriend. I'm not in any place to say about her or so whatever. But she's kinda makes me piss that i've turned you to something that i can be proud of. Eg, changing you to a nobody to a somebody (bad to good), and letting know the idea of being a better man. And how does it feels like to be seen in other people's eye. And guess what i thought you were mature enough to think what's the right thing to do,i guess it was all wrong. She spoilt you,your image, badly. And guess what other people can't say anything. Like whether she spoilt you or somethingor she's isn't happy with what i said, Because you know why, It's my fucking blog, own rights, own say. I'm not downgrading her or something,or ruining her imagine or like anything. SO, if she's isn't like happy, and wants to start some cyberbullying thing, think twice, YOU KNOW THE LAW. I'm not stupid or anything.
i have no idea why you're heartless this and that.you still love me ,when you're hiding me from that girl for like ...2 and a half weeks?you say that you would promise me that,we would be together like ...FOREVER?look what you have done.she's a girl who spoil your image.she change you back to the way you are.i hange you to the way (bad-good)and she change you the other way rond(good-bad)dude ! if you seriously love her ,you should tell her that you love her that much .not just like ,she's the one who tell you this and that right ?if you dont like her ,you should tell her your feelings.even if it hurts this much.because ..its no intention to be with her when you're not loving her that much rights?
